A slap in the face

Everyone has heard the saying "Don't take anything for granted." We live each day assuming we aren't taking anything for granted until it's gone. Then boom, it's like a slap in the face! Why didn't I spend more time with that family member or friend? Why didn't I treat my loved one that I should have? Why didn't I spend more time with my children when they were young? Why didn't I do that when I was able? Some many things we unwilling/unknowing to take advantage of.

I too am guilty of this. My whole life I have been athletic and able to succeed in almost anything I attempted. I would get an ache or pain from one sport or the other and just shrug it off, positive it was just a pull or sprain, no need to worry. I took my health for granted.

Over the past year I had wanted to seriously get into Crossfit. Compete and be the best I could. I attended Regionals and got to watch Rich Froning compete in person! I had one of the best athletes I have ever known/met as my nutrition coach, Holly Mata. I have become really good friends with most amazing Crossfit couple ever, Jen and Sam Dancer. Went to Christmas Abbott's health seminar and was able to hear her life story from her own mouth. Life changing experiences, but none of them gave me the motivation I needed to get off my ass. Why? Because I wasn't the best at my box or anywhere close.

I hated that I was having trouble with what seemed to be easy for everyone else, squats. Why couldn't I do them? I put in some many extra hours working to only end in tears from being so pissed off. What was wrong with me? Out of frustration I found excuses to not wod. Then my slap in the face came.

Over the past few years I have been having problems with my right arm. It would get numb just from holding the blow dryer or putting on make up. I would just shake it off until it felt better and go on with my day. Over the past month it has gotten to where my arm is numb almost all day. It goes from really numb to almost barely numb. The other day I couldn't even hold my fork while eating a salad. So finally I went to the doctor. To put it simple, I have inflammation around my spine and my neck vertebras are deteriorating. I can no longer practice olympic lifting until we can figure how severe it is. There is a huge red mark across my face!

I'm not sure what happens now but I do know I have a huge support system around me. I am still able to condition, which I hate, but the more active I am the less likely it is to get worse. The biggest step I have taken since the news is this, writing about it. I come from a family that doesn't share medical news. Not unless it's serious and we need to spend time with someone to say our good byes. Over the years I have learned to not take people for granted by accident. I learned about my dad and his many heat strokes during the summer months to only call during one of his ER visits. Man, was that another huge slap in the face. I guess we just don't want to worry the ones we love. It's just the way I grew up. But at times like this, it's the loved ones we need to inform and lean on. I have learned it's not a weakness to admit you need their support and prayers.

That being said, every day we wake up is a gift. Kiss your babies and hold them tight. Call your loved ones when you think about them. Hear their voice, don't just send a text. Run that 5k you have always wanted to run. Who cares if your not the fastest or the best. At least you lived that day and fulfilled your wants/dreams. We only have one life to live, make the best of it.



Holly Mata and I at the MAC competition.


Rich Froning and I at the Crossfit Regionals.



















Christmas Abbott and I in Dallas, TX.


gold gold GOLD!

Everywhere I look I'm seeing spots gold polka dots and I love it!! I can't seem to get enough stuff with gold polka dots. The other night I sat my coffee cup down and realized that not only did it have gold polka dots but so did the bag and notebook beside it. 

Here are some of the things I am obsessing over right now:

This coffee cup from Starbucks it a must have. 

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I would die for a gold polka dotted bathroom or closet.


All of my planners and note books have gold polka dots.


Clothes! Any type of clothing with gold polka dots or even just gold.


I am so crazy about gold that my lovely husband even DIY'd me a coffee mug with my initial on it! Love it. Which has inspired some DIY gifts for Christmas! 







Being Real. Being ME.





Over the past couple of weeks I have found comfort in this quote. I have always been and will always be a real person. Say what I feel, how I see things and how I view the truth. I have never apologized for it and never will. I may explain my feelings but what I feel is what I feel. 

I have been blessed to have a few friends that are the same way as I. We get along great. Yes, our feelings still get hurt, we have our little fights and at times we hate each other (only for moments) but at the end of our conversations we know we are just being real with each other. I wouldn't have it any other way. I love those girls and I know they love me, because if they didn't they would just tell me what I wanted to hear!

"Sometimes your circle decreases in size, but increases in value" - Unknown

Just shoot me

A few months ago I decided I wanted to make one of Gray's Christmas presents. I reached out to one of my favorite places, Junque 2 Jewels, and set a date and time to make this idea a reality. Finally the day arrived, I was going to make Gray a target board for his Nerf guns!!

I was pumped when I arrived, but shortly after starting I got really discouraged. My first idea to paint the target camo went south fast when my OCD of perfection got the best of me. So I then painted over everything with black and made a black & white target. This project was by far the biggest pain in my ass.  However, my idea is now a reality and I hope Gray likes it!

This is the target when I arrived.

And this is the target finished.













I will spare you all the in between pics and tantrums!

"To conquer frustration, one must remain intensely focused on the outcome, not the obstacles" - T.F Hodge

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